Feeling like spring

Today is perhaps the first day this year that it's felt like spring is finally here. There was a hazy warmth that had settled over the freshly mown grass. Fresh magnolia blooms on the trees. A dosy bumblebee, bravely venturing out, seeking pollen to carry heavy on fuzzy legs.
The warm breath of spring that carried on the slight breeze.

Its times like this that I truly believe the seasons have a large impact on my mood and general mental health. Whether its coincidence that medication and therapy are starting to take effect or simply the increase in vitamin D, but I can feel minute changes.

In winter it feels like things will never get better. I always feel the darkness and cold seep into my bones. It infects my being for months. A cold I can't shake. I find it so hard to find the light. Maybe that is why I'm starting to prefer summer, I used to love autumn, but now I only want the heat and the light. Because I know that if its lighter and brighter I don't have to work as hard to maintain a better mood, somehow it happens naturally.

I just love noticing things shifting slightly. When they've been the same grey cloudy streets you've walked for months you notice when a warm ray of sun spills down through leafy green foliage. There is a palpable sense in people that things are heading towards warmer times, better days, brighter moments.It makes me feel more hopeful.

 Hope you are all well,
Love and light,
Lily